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Monday, June 23, 2008
Jealousy: Inclined to or troubled by suspicions or fears of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aimsIn the term jealous, that's actually plenty of definition but the above one stated the best to describe me or in any case, most of the couples. Maybe not every time but I am trying to control this emotions. People can see jealous as a good side of a love but can be also picture as a negative impact in relationship too. Allowed me to bring you through. Being jealous is due to fact you care for that particular person which is very natural in a relationship but if such jealousy bring unhappiness and trouble to that particular person, this not caring, rather it is your own desire.
To love someone, is to respect her and her friends, in any case not not hurt her. Instead embrace her wrong decision - it's understandable a guy tends to protect a girl or sometime, over protecting her, but she needs to make one mistake for her to realise who is the right friend and who are the one who only take advantage of her. If we, i mean the guys, can't embrace her and respect her decision then this is desire, this is over control and this is clearly shown no trusting bond is between the both. If that's the case then must well just buy any pet back to control and put in the cage better.
I know protecting and caring the girls is a must-job for the guys however if you take the lead and walk in front all the time, without allowing her to know whose the bad guy and who are real friendship then things gonna get real nasty when you leave her. This will definitely not gonna aid her in her growth. Maybe we tend to have the mentality of ' YES, let her fall and to learn how to stand up but oh, dun let her fall TOO BADLY". But you have to understand if girls choose the hard way, she will fall in a hard manner. Let it be, it's hard I know but if you really love her i think you will welcome her back to your heart openly. Some girls just need a big "wacked" to realize who's good and who's not, they may regret, they may not but the bottom line is, they will know we meant for her good all year round.
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Saturday, June 21, 2008
Nagging ParentsSome teens just couldn't stand them for 10mins!
How often have I heard that! While, of course, there are those who have good, open family communication, many young people get angry at their parents for telling them what to do. Often they end up not speaking to them at all.
I, too, fought with my mother from time to time about how I chose to live my life. I'd say: "Leave me alone! Let me do things my way!"
Mothers and Fathers always seem to be giving their kids a hard time. From prehistoric times, mother have been saying things like: " Do your homework!" "Turn of the television!" "Wake up or you'll be late!: It's not something we can change. But you'll understand how your parents feel when you become a parent yourself.
So it is important for you to be big-hearted. If a parent yells at you, you can think: " A loud voice means she is healthy; that's great," or, "Oh, he is expressing his love for me. I appreciate it." Your ability to view parents in this way is a sign of your increasing maturity.
Throughout the animal world, parents teach their young how to survive - how to hunt, how to eat, etc. Accordingly, our parents teach us so many things, launching us in the right direction. This is something we learn to appreciate as we become adults ourselves.
There is a well-known story about a forlorn young man sitting dejectedly by the road after quarreling with his father. He believed his father was narrow-minded, unfair and a fool. An older acquaintance came along and, guessing the cause of his sadness, said: "When I was around eighteen, my father told me nothing but dull, stupid things that infuriated me. I got really sick of hearing them. But ten years later, I started feeling that everything my father was saying made a lot of sense. I wondered, ' When did my father develop so much wisdom?"
I think it's important that you use your own wisdom to avoid fighting with your parents. Furthermore, when your parents quarrel between themselves, as many do from time to time, the wisest thing is for you to stay out of it.
(The Way of Youth - Daisaku Ikeda)
Adding to it, I feel we are blessed with parents nagging at us. This show how much they really care as compared to kids who nagged at their parents - how spoiled can the child be then? In some way, some kids hope so much someone can really nagged at them but unfortunately they are not around anymore.
So appreciate the care and concern shower by our parents, and with that I would like to wish every parents a belated mothers' and fathers' day!!!
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Friday, June 20, 2008
I'm FAT... Super Fat and i still wear baggy clothes. LMAO. Worst, this is what dar bought for me during her holiday trip to Genting/KL: Gonna eat and eat again....
I think I am really FAT can, my neck size is increasing each fine day. And well, standing at 164cm and weighting at 62kg - I am FAT - That's a reality!!! Damn it. More soft drinks, more COKE and more fast food!!! Crazily Big Fat Mac.Tan!!! Went out for interview back at Nparks which followed by a movie after that - KongFu Panda - yeehaaaaaaa! Thanks Darling for watching it with me!!!!
I think I am really FAT can, my neck size is increasing each fine day. And well, standing at 164cm and weighting at 62kg - I am FAT - That's a reality!!! Damn it. More soft drinks, more COKE and more fast food!!! Crazily Big Fat Mac.Tan!!! Went out for interview back at Nparks which followed by a movie after that - KongFu Panda - yeehaaaaaaa! Thanks Darling for watching it with me!!!!
Realise actually being fat is not really that bad afterall? _____________________________________________________________________
NYPSD DaimokukaiSince it was launched, I think today is my FIRST involvement. Met colin - our new Iic, and know him better in some ways. Met two new members, one being grad from ASD and came to NYPSD and the other one being a believer. Share my pathetic story with yee hong and yi jie - telling them the fact of being uhm-uhm is so damn bloody cruel and sad. Anyway Laurel, THANK YOUR MUM FOR HER SALAD!!! It's nice!! I want more cheese next time! LOL
Met dar again after that and had MOS BURGER for dinner!! Crap, mac is just growing fatter and fatter......... The princess, and the BIG FAT MAC!
" There is no need to compare yourself to others; just keep on striving to do your best, in your own unique way. Also, try not to be swayed by the inevitable ups and down of life. the important thing is winning in the end. And the mystic law ensures our ultimate victory" - Ikeda Sensei
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Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Extracts from The Wisdom Of The Lotus Sutra Vol 1," The parable tells of a father who is an excellent physician. While he is away, his children drink poison, and he returns home to find them writhing on the ground in agony. The physician prepares medicine for his children, but they refuse to take it, for the poison has caused them to lose their minds.
The father then devises a plan to save his children. Leaving behind the medicine, he sets off a journey. Reaching his destination, he sends a messenger to tell his children that he has died. They are so overcome with grief that they regain their senses, drink the medicine and are immediately cured.
The excellent physician is the Buddha, and the journey on which he departs represents the Buddha's passing. Nichiren Daishonin further says that the children indicate the people living in the Latter Day of the Law, the good medicine is Nam-myo-ho-renge-kyo, and the messenger refers to the Bodhisattvas of the Earth. In other words, Nam-myo-ho-renge-kyo, the excellent medicine that saves all people after the Buddha's passing, has been expounded in the "Life Span" chapter "
Was pretty upset this phrase " this is what friends are for" is actually not really true in some cases, worst cases is when you wrongly see someone you can trust and you believe is a good friend. However, being the disciples of ND Buddhism, I shall not be defeated by criticisms. Hence, those who suffer like I do, or receive any form of unwanted remarks, this is for you -
" Turn criticisms into prayers. Transcend all worldly affairs and accumulate good fortune through kosen-rufu movements. Be tolerant and avoid emotional response. Chanting daimoku stimulates one's growth and development. Just talk on strategy and no action leads one to the wrong direction. Determined prayers give rise to wisdom. Be positive. Prayers make everything possible. "
Gilbert's HV a success!!!
Yeah! I will continue to strive excellence for NypSD!!
NYPSD - SINCERE!
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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Ok, as I was complaining bout those boring sunday and monday, I chanted for a problems for me to encounter so that I learn from it and grow stronger and tougher. And ta-dah, I got my first set-back after the boring days - I FAILED MY BTT!!! LOL.. But I suddenly feel i can take defeat easier as compared to the past. Never mind, I made another appointment already and next time round I will PASS! Had a dialogue with WEILI, and got two more books from her written by Daisaku Ikeda on Youths. Just wanna know youths better and probably to evaluate myself in order for me to improve!During projects, i was actually kinda stern and rather strict. " Wacked" CC, LinC and ah Jay, I feel bad lah, but this is for the sake of the group. I wan this group to unite and contribute to do better and score good grades together. Erm, I deeply filled with regret and well, SORRY BUDDIES!
Another kns thing, chit chat with QY, and wah-piang I said something i shouldn't have! It's bout GIFT and what the hell la, that's like my d*****t secret but thank god she's someone I am able to trust! LOL.... And with QY knowing it, I hope she dun pass it to Laurel then to Lester. Wah, can die!
" On the journey of kofu things will not always proceed smoothly. But we are eternal comrades. People who come together in good times but desert one another when the going get rough are not comrades. Turning a blind eye to the suffering of others, using the rational that 'its has nothing to do with me' is not the spirit of comrades. True comrades share both sufferings and joy" - Ikeda Sensei.
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Monday, June 16, 2008
After the successful SD Nationwide Meeting, my life have been boring for 2 dyas. But my Daimoku is stronger, is filled with more determination and placed more sincere in it. For the fact I cant wait for new challenges and I want to succeed again. Maybe not now, but this coming Wednesday is a must attend home visit to Gilbert. I have rally my CICs to work together and bring this fellow back to NypSD just like Pengyu did. I think I have wasted enough time already, I need to really spend more time on gakkai or meaningful things in life. Therefore, I hope I am able to get the job I wanted and at the same time contribute back to NypSd, back to gakkai!Been reading "The Wisdom Of The Lotus Sutra Volume 1" since last Friday, and here are some of the learning points. I really hope to complete the whole series before the year ends. I can do it yoz!!! NMHRGK!!!!!
- Nichiren Daishonin says myo [of myoho, the Mystic Law] has three meaning: " to open," " to be endowed and perfect" and "to revive." These are the attributes of life and the attributes of a Buddha as well.
- Toda Sensei said to Ikeda Sensei : "You have to encounter problems in life. Only when we encounter problems can we understand faith and achieve greatness."
And well, before i ends today entry, here's a guidance to end the night!
" Hardships make us strong. Problems give birth to wisdom. Sorrows cultivate compassion for others. Those who have suffered the most can become the happiest. "
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Sunday, June 15, 2008
I think i shall flood my own blog with guidances!!!First up,
" The struggle between happiness and unhappiness is the story of human existence. The struggle between peace and war is the history of the human race. The power that leads us to eternal victory amid these struggles is the power of good within us. " - Daisaku Ikeda
Today dance prac - another meaningful guidance
" If we unit in one mind, we will definitely achieve our goals. A new path that we never even dreamed of will open up before us withour fail. That is the strength of those who believe in the Daishonin's Buddhism. Please never forget that. " - Toda Sensei
Anyway, read Yee Hong's Blog, realise he not doing really well even though he looks okay. I think NYP-SD should really stand up together and help one another. Dun forget, we are one big family. So Yee Hong, you're not alone!!!!
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Saturday, June 14, 2008
NYPSD - SINCERE
1) Glad my member, pengyu, came down to learn something from nypsd2) Glad princess came to learn the spirit of student division
3) Glad I made it! NYPSD SPIRIT CHIEF!! Let's make NypSD grow further, my fellow comrades!!!
" It is essential that you all work together well. Throughout human history, this has been and will remain the key to victory "
So my fellow CICs, please, Let's work together and be it G1 or G2, planning or studies chief, we need to work together, to share our prob together and to chant together! Let's treat one another like brothers and good friends. Let's strive for NypSD, the growth of our members and most importantly - a breakthrough in our lives. Let's graduate from NypSD in Style!!!
A new "family" is formed in NypSD i think, LOL. Two new sisters(KJ & Angela), a few "couple" here and there. LOL..... and most importantly, this actually brings the CIC closer together.. Amazing... lmao...
- - - - Oh, do enjoy your trip to malaysia... It's the first time I went there with a stead.. I hope have a fruitful trip and enjoy this holiday...
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Wednesday, June 11, 2008
100% Faith
100% Commitment
300% In Love with You
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and yet things din exactly turned out I expect it to be.
For the VA daimokukai I chant for her for the entire 55mins.
1) I chant earnestly for her to overcome stress to do well in her test
2) I chant for extra protective power to protect her
3) I pray for myself to be able to meet the right girl after i finish this daimokukai
And well I did meet her, and i hope she is the one for me!
During my down period, everyone came to look for me and cheer me up.
So did Doline - this fact made her blew her top when she heard it!
I know Doline used to like me alot and used to be the obstacles both of us quarrel
but hey, I just simply need someone to talk to. Who live woodlands to meet me to talk to me at the time of 2am?
Ced->Bedok
Zhong Kai->Bedok
Gift->Paya Lebar
Daniel->SengKang
Uncle->Amk
Ivan->Toa Payoh
Hong Ling->Boon Lay
Marcia/Jacky -> Upper Thomson
My life is on the extreme LLC, so i need of someone to drink and smoke with me which may ease the pain for even 3hours! Although I'm in this state of life, my heart is still extremely clear and that is I LOVE YOU! I LOVE ELENA WONG PEI SHI!!!!
If you still read my blog, This msg is for you, the rest dun read.
Msg to you : We were still friend when i met her. If u cant forgive me for meeting her as a FRIEND. Then do forgive me as your boyfriend. I was really happy to be able to hug you again like i did in the past. At least I know I am not hugging a wooden doll but more than someone who produces warmth and love. I gave you the pooh bear in the end, to symbolize my love for you is real. If I don't love you so much as I should do or even more, I wouldn't be so emo for this 2 week of hell life without my precious princess with me. I keep telling myself since i reach home what happened last night was for real is not another false hope planted into my heart again. I told myself If i have the chance to grab your hand, I will never let it go - EVER. You told me you're lost now, but I am too when u leave me for derrick, when u leave for your studies and when u leave me abandon for this 2 weeks. I have never taken it at heart so much so that I love you more than I hate you. I chanted for the wisdom of a wise man, to place priorities over trivial matter. And to me, YOU are my priority, you are my most important woman of my life. Therefore , trivial matters such as those hurtful memories I have decided to throw out of the window. You can do it too if you chant sincerely and fearlessly to the gohonzon. Even for that 15mins, you're in HLC and you will know the surrounding especially me, on how much I love you! Do not give up faith, do not abandon the power of gohonzon and do not give up on yourself. If you need someone to be there, I WILL BE THE FIRST. If you need a shoulder to lean on, I WILL BE THE FIRST. And if I were to die one day, YOU WILL BE THE FIRST NAME I WISH TO REMEMBER before going to my next life. In fact, I have forgiven you on everything, and yes everything. I know when u turn single on 21.05.08, many guys came knocking on your doors. The queue is as long as my love is for you. But i am grateful gohonzon stood by me and let me realize you have not chosen anyone of them yet. And as always, I would still love to know whether am I your prince charming! Even till now, you are my princess, my one and only beloved princess. Someone who support me, someone who used to love and care for me like that's no tomorrow and someone who pour out her true love for me. How can I hide me feeling from you? I am being truthful, I am being loyal just for fact I wan you to know I have changed. Seriously, princess, I need you more than just one night. I need you forever, I need till my last breath where my lips is still there for you to kiss on. I need you for my next life - I need you eternity! Hold my hand and we shall brave the storm together! Tell me when you don't need me anymore. I will leave, I will leave with open heart this time round. I will still chant for you, I will still love you and I will still care for you! All I want is YOU.
mac.tan is dead
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Sunday, June 08, 2008
" I want to laugh with you when u laughI want to have fun with you when you have fun
I want to grieve with you when you're grieving
When you're sad... I want to cry with you "
05.07.05 - 21.05.08
我仍然等待着你................
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Saturday, June 07, 2008
been sleeping like for 2,3 hours of late..been drinking of late..
been dancing hmm like i always do?
alright, straight to the point, i think I've became a night-life-person of late, reach home around 5-6am den gotta wake up like 7-8am to go school. I feel I've became the second CEDRIC TAN WEI SIONG. What to do, I'm like MAc.TAn, he's Ced Tan, so yup brothers or rather I am just following his path? Maybe this the way to forget the pain which etched in my heart so badly, so deeply?
Day-Time : The fake Mac with a mask full of smile, full of laughter and keep "bio-ing cha-bo" with LinC and Chong Chuan(and maybe Jason?? LOL)
Night-Time: The Emo mac.tan back to himself with tears and fear. Gotta do something bout it.
Just wanna dance.. Just wanna be back with Urban Passion once more. It's been awhile Human Revolution(H.R. Crew) has formed which may result why it's been pretty quiet for U.P. I'm sad!! :' [
Unexpectedly, I placed this video after so long. stage performances bring out the real mac.tan!
I wanna thank GIFT so much!
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Monday, June 02, 2008
ok, so 4 ICAs starting from tml to thurs...Fighting to win the battles.. WOoTs!!!
" Just as flowers open up and bear fruits,
just as the moon appears and invariably grows full,
just as a lamp becomes brighter when oil is added,
and just as plants and tress flourish with rain,
so will human beings never fail to prosper
when they make good causes. "
- Nichiren
Hopefully, such guidance will not just motivate me and which allow my determination grows, I hope it benefit those who are fighting together with me! GBT people, GBT my friends!
SUPER SAD + ANGRY + WTH + KNS + LOST after reading eleena's blog.... ok fine!!!!
I DUN HAVE A GIRLFRIEND TOO!
AND EVEN I DO.... IT'S NEVER GONNA BE YOU!
AND EVEN I DO.... IT'S NEVER GONNA BE YOU!
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